On Friday, February 1, Mariam and I will be exchanging this:
[The Hudson River on January 26, 2018]
[The Yorkshire Dales, England]
It’s a pretty fine change of scenery if I do say so myself.
Once upon a time, back in the day, I loved winter. How could one not love winter…when you’re twelve years old and you’re skating on the Brick Pond in Owego, NY? I had a toboggan, a sled and the ability to make a superb snow person. I owned a pair of old snowshoes with leather hide webbing. An Eddie Bauer Arctic Parka hung in my closet…and still does. I camped out in the High Peaks of the Adirondacks when it was -28℉. My ice skates, black and weathered, hung on the wall leading to our attic. Every time I would pass them, on a stifling day in August, I would think of the coming winter and the frozen pond only a few hundred feet from my front door.
I couldn’t wait.
Then in 1974, a personal tragedy visited me while hiking in the Adirondacks and winter became a little darker in my heart. I no longer saw the snow as pristine and pure and calming as I had for almost two decades of my life.
The years went by. I woke up one morning and looking into the mirror, I saw a middle-aged man looking back at me. The salt & pepper hair had gone mostly gray. My back hurts after shoveling. My skates no longer fit. my bones ache and my muscles get sore when I am forced out of our house to deal with a two-foot snowfall. Winter no longer holds a spell over me. I layer up with wool and fleece because I always feel chilled. I love to watch the snow fall slowly onto the lake near our house. I love to walk in the moonlight, feeling the peculiar crunch of the ground on cold nights. But where I’d really rather be is sitting near our wood stove and reading a Nordic Noir novel.
In the mid-1980’s, I spent a year in Dorset, England. It changed my life. Footpaths and pubs abound in the chalky hills of Thomas Hardy country. The mossy gravestones surround the mossy churches. And, the green is breathtaking. England may not have the twenty-eight shades of green that cover my beloved Ireland, but it’s a close second. Sometimes, at our home in the Adirondacks, I will gaze out of the large window that faces Rainbow Lake and see a monochromatic world. My eyes strain for some color. A last brown leaf on a dormant maple or even a patch of blue sky beyond the leaden skies. But no, it’s a world of white and gray. I yearn for a dandelion or a trillium…anything with color.
So, we’re off to spend the remainder of the winter in Dorset, hosted by friends I met in the 1980’s. We plan on doing a lot of walking, and I will carry an L.L Bean pole to lean on if my back begins to trouble me.
I guarantee that there will be a stone wall to sit on and rest. There will be a quiet pew in a forgotten little church in a out-of-the-way village where I can write in my journal.
Yes, I will sit in that quiet pew and think about trading white for green, mild days for thumb-numbing cold mornings and ice for muddy footpaths.
And, I shall have some peace there…without fleece, without down and without cares.
Love to read anything by Patrick Egan…..so well written, feel like i’m right there with him. Always hits home, and leaves me thinking……. 🙂